Wake up late at night.

One night I was suffering a great deal of pain in my mouth, one big cold sore.
I have them often, and they make me sleep badly and affect my humor.
I then woke up with my son, a 10 months old baby, crying at 02:00 am.
I first put some medicine in my sore and then it felt much better.
And I was going to bed happy to sleep nicely-
But the crying got stronger: I thought: So bad, I have to attend him.
I went to his bedroom, to help him out,
Then it came to me:  So selfish I am: I am feeling so much better: I have energy surplus right now:  I can help the kid and sleep nicely after, I don’t need to be angry or bitter as I am.

The purpose of having good things is to serve others, not ourselves, got it?

The trap: you need more and more..

You need aways more, but that does`nt give you what you expect.

You know that is not going to give you what you want, but you do it anyway.
Your relations are eroding, crumblling.
Your mind is triggered for the wrong things.
You feel guilty.
You are in a trap, how to get out alone?

You are not the only one.

Asking for help is necessary.